Can't Run Away

There is this song I heard today by Bethany Dillon, and the first line is something about running around the room and running outside and back inside and never being able to run away from yourself.

And that made me think about how weird it is that we never get to get away from ourselves. I don't think there is one person on earth that we could spend every waking moment with. I mean husbands and wives love each other, and parents love children, but even they have to spend some time apart during the day or whatever - or else we'd go crazy.

BUT - we'd better like ourselves, because we NEVER get a break from ourselves. To me, that is really weird! I mean, I have had some moments where I just want to pull my brain out of my head and stop thinking and get out of my head, but of course it's not possible. But don't you just sometimes want to get away from yourself? Maybe that's why some people get so crazy sometimes - they can't handle themselves, but then they can't get away from themselves either!

I've never really thought about getting out of my body and life and personality - I guess because it's not possible at all... I think it would be really weird, but a nice break!

We have to live with our personality ALL the time - when we wake up, when we go to bed, when we are having a bad day, so it would behoove us to have a good personality and a positive outlook on life because otherwise it would SUCK to live with yourself!

All these thoughts from one song I heard today. It is interesting, though. Usually, if I am really frustrated about someone who is extremely rude or mean or whatever, I remind myself that they have to live with themselves. It just makes me realize how difficult it really would be to be someone who is mean or negative or lazy or whatever - because I believe deep down no one wants to be that way - but they have let themselves become that way for some reason, whether it's to deal with something in their life or to shield themselves from other rude people - who knows... but it makes me sad for the person, because they have to live with themselves day in and day out - and that can't be pretty. Sometimes that makes me have more sympathy for those people, and sometimes, for a short minute, it makes me feel secretly happy that they have to live with themselves - I hate to admit that last part, but I'm just being honest. Mostly, I hope that I realize that these people need prayer and God's presence in their lives even more so that I can be a better friend.

So, I guess some good advice would be that since you can't run away from yourself - you might as well try to work on yourself so that you are more fun to live with - because it's not gonna change unless you do!